whew!tagal ko ng di nagbblog dito ah!ummm mas gs2 ko kasi sa tblog..i mean madami akong pedeng gawin in that blog...well nalimutan ko, iba nga pala ang dapat kong ikwento (nakita ko ulit yung title)..hehe

ayun so last wednesday naglaro kami ng badminton ng ate ko tsaka ng tito ko... when we were still on our way (riding a tricycle) bigla ba naman nagbukas ng topic yung ate ko na talagang kinasira ng araw ko...dun sa makakabasa you might say : "kababawan!" pero sakin its a big deal.. ang dami namin pinag-uusapan nun nang biglang mabuksan ang topic na bisyo at mula dun e biglang napunta sa lalaking ehem ehem pinapangarap ko (very highschool)....nakwento ko kac na kapag nagkakatext kami ni @#$%^ e ganito lagi ang nagiging flow ng conversation:

Ako: Gandang Gabi!!! (mga 11pm na 'to)

@#$%^ : San k galing?

Ako: ha? dito lang ako sa bahay, di nmn aq umalis...

@#$%^ : aH.kala ko galing ka sa labas

o kaya naman ganito:

Ako: (magse2d ng luv quote)

@#$%^ : lasing?

saklap ba? nung minsan nasermunan pa ko sabi mahilig daw akong mag inom at mag gala...chenelin chuva...na dapat daw inaalagaan ko sarili ko...aun...

so ito naman si ate nung marinig tinawanan ako sabi sakin :

Ate: ayan tignan mo pati si @#$%^ ayaw sa mag-iinom pati yung laging nasa labas...e hndi ka nga magugustuhan nun...

Ako: e kac naman...

Ate : Naku bata ka pa kung magmahal...di ka pa pede kay @#$%^...ang gusto nun yung pang matagalan. siya yung lalaki na ihahatid ka pag tapos na yung klase mo...ung kapag maagap ang klase mo susunduin ka niya...yung sabay kayong kakain pag lunch..

Ako: e pano nmn pag may lakad ako ksma barkda ko??? (napapaisip na ko nito pra ngang naiiyak pa)

Ate: e di magsasabi ka sa kanya tapos sasabihin nia na ok sige pero susunduin kita...tapos pag xa naman may lakad ipapakilala ka sa mga friends niya...oh di ba!!

AKo: naku swerte niya pag narendahan niya ako...

Ate: e pag ganun ba seseryosohin mo ba?

Ako : ....101%!

ayun dn yta natigil yung uspan namin ng ate ko...the rest nung papunta dun e katahimikan... diba dun sa uspan namin nabanggit ko na parang naiiyak ako...kasi naman yung pagkakadescribe nung ate ko kay @#$%^ yun yung pangarap kong guy maging si @#$%^ man yun o hindi...ewan ganun nga cguro ang feeling ng walang nagtatagal ng relationship...parang walang naging seryoso sa part ko man o sa kanya....

pagdating namin dun parang gusto ko n ulet umuwi at magkulong sa kwarto...bawat palo ko dun sa shuttle parang gusto kong tumama kay ate (ang bad ko..) habang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko :" langya ka kasi e binanggit mo pa!e di sana di ako naffrustrate ngaun!e di sana di ko nararamdaman yung kahungkagan ng buhay pag-ibig ko!"

yung larong badminton lalo ko pang nilaro..akala ko mawawala dun pero lalo lang akong nainis kasi unfair dun sa dalawa kong kasama...buong game mukha akong tanga...

baliw ang nag iintay sa pag-ibig....darating din nmn yan..pero putcha naman kelan pa???

ALIPIN
by: Shamrock

na ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin

** i liked this song the first time i heard it..well just like what the song says,

i'm kinda bit trapped with my feelings for this guy...

maybe if i could just be alone with him for just 1 day i'd d0 anything to make him stay and share

the feelings i have for him... 

so ok? its very HOT (i mean very hot) right now and i can't control the droplets of sweat pouring down on my face as well as in my body... i can't find a way in where i could enjoy doing something in this situation..hai...well we had badminton game this morning and it was really good.. i was even jumping just to hit the cock..i mean the shuttle cock..hehe being there well aside from playing i thought of having a little sight seeing but to my dismay no gorgeous or even cute guy caught my attention...LOL

i was planning to write a story but i didn't know where to start and what story to tell...hehe hmmm...i'm still thinking...LOL

i'm starting to feel bored right now..i guess i have to fing another thing to do before my enthusiasm with my driving lesson wears out..

i do disk jockeying in one of the stations here in our place (i think i've written it here before) and something happened that lessened my intererest of doing mah thing there...well a friend of mine went to this other station and greeted us and said that we were dj in the campus..well when it was heard by the station where i'm having my onboard they thought of it as double meaning (because the station was Campus Radio)..they talked to us about what happened and asked us if we know something about it and so on...so what i thought was that they don't trust us at all...i mean were on the same field and what's the use of the lesson we take up in school if we will not practice it..and even so,were not the kind of people who are used to spying...it just kinda hurt my feelings..thats why i'm reacting this way...totally disappointed with them

well i'm a little devil on some things but not as serious to do things like that...just like recently. i pretended to this guy i liked that i didn't know about his breakup with his GF.. but it was so funny cause it backfired and he got depressed about it leaving me worried and my conscience got in the way..hehe stupid of me to do that.. anyways we are still texting each other eventhough he doesn't respond to my text that much...

well here he is...the one in red sando...i was happy seeing this pic (well maybe if you'll look closer you'll know why...ahehehehe) but then again seeing his eyes looking the other way made me think again... talk about being unlucky...

got my hair permed but not permanently...just did a little braiding here and there...and voila! curls!!!!

whew...i cooked again for lunch and i think i did good with it... i also attended the mass yersterday after 1 yr of being inactive in the church...some things change ayt??? and its for the better that's why i'm so happy..wish you could all see my face..

grabe lamig2 namn kya lang auko ulet matulog nakakatamad para bang ang hirap ng kumilos pag gicng..hai auko pa magkwento bout wat happened this last few weeks...wla pa sa mood e...i've been 2 manila last week to attend a seminar... the experience was great for the fact that we were all by ourselves...

hai..not in the mood tlga to tell you the details of the trip... i'll drop by some other time ok...by the way, someone sang to me my fave song in guitars...unexpected but it was good and had my wish somewhat fulfiiled...still not satisfied eh? not really except that i was expecting someone to do that for me...ahihihihihihi :wink:

got this quiz a long tym ago....my answer na nga xa dun sa isa kong blog...

1.meron bang someone na nakapagpapatibok ng puso mo ngayon?
--- yup....meron ng someone

2. alam ba nya?
---i think wla xang idea about it khit pa niloloko kmi sa isa't isa

3. he/she likes you din ba?
--- hai ...libre ang mangarap d b??ahihihihi

4. anong name nya?
--- feeling u nmn sasabihin ko sayo??!!

5.pano kapag nalaman mo na mahal ka rin nya?
--- ahhhhmmmpppp hooooo e di masaya lola mo

6. pano pag di ka pala nya mahal?
---yay....niloloko yta ako nitong quiz na '2 e..knna poctive..pero ummmm... disappointed xempre kaw b nmn....

7. tahimik or makulit?
--- depende pero xempre mas mtimbang pag makulit pero ung ndi pasaway ha!!!!

8. palagi ba kayo magkasama?bonding?
--- in a way di kac maiiwasan....

9. matanda xa or mas bata sayo..
---younger yta aq e...

10. NAG-uusap ba kayo sa fone?
--- nope...di na uso ngaun pag sa landlyn unlike before...

11. text?
--- bfore kc kelangan (sus cno kya 2)

12. alam mo ba full name nya?
--- yeah...

13. close ba kayo?
--- not really....

14. how long have you been friends?
--- ndi nga kami close...tapos ngaun friends pa...pang asar ha!!!hehehe ummm... sana friends kami

15. san mo xa unang nakita?
-- sa skul

16. alam ng friends mo yung tungkol sa kanya?
--- oo naman...nakakaasar na nga pag minsan e!kc ang lakas pumunchline

17. ano reaction nila?
--- ummmm.... "we look good together" daw e!ahihihihi

18. masaya ka ba pag nakikita xa?
--- a bit....hoooo pasaway

19. love or crush mo xa?
--- infatuated lang cguro

20. ano meron xa na wala sa iba?
---ay nq auko ng magsalita kac isang description lang mabubuko na aq!

21. you like the person because....-
-- di xa trying hard,natural xa at di plastik....iadd n ntin na nakakatuwa xa

22. what if nalaman nya na gusto mo xa....ano gagawin mo?
--- ngeeeee.....no choice e lagi p din kc kmi magkikita...

23. close ka ba sa friends nya?
--- di ko nga knowing friends niya e!

24. eh sa parents nya?
--- never met his parents....(hmmm.... sana)

25. nakakasama ka ba sa 'barkada lakad/gimik nila ng friends nya?
--- di pa cguro kung ung friends nmin preho,oo nksama ko na xa

26. anong plans mo for the 2 of u?
--- wala...dapat ba lagi nagpaplano???qng ano mangyayari e di un...

27. sa palagay mo....may gusto rin kaya xa sayo?
--- malabo e... parang iba trip niang gal...

29. msg mo sa kanya......
--- ung cnbi mo sakin b4 ang msg ko sau....

30. may gf/bf kana ba?
--- wala e...

31. cno mga crush mo?
--- madami....

32. LOVE?
--- family tsaka friends

33. hate most?
---di ako nagtatanim ng galit e...kya luv ko lahat sila

34. how much do u love him/her?
--- cno ba??? infatuated nga lang ako noh!!!

35. wish?
--- harhar a happy ending....c",)

:wink: :wink: :wink:

had our community service in calumpang..it was a great experience for the fact that it was my first time to do stuffs done by house builders and i got the chance to see we-look-good-together... :wink: :wink:

my whole body aches right now including my heart... :sad: :sad: i heard that things between him and the girl are getting better.. they're beginning to be an item at school...good for them...not for me...i really wish i was in her position...hai.....dream on...

I Love you goodbye
Nina

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I’ll always stay with you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that’s something I can’t do
Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can find some way to understand I’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that I could never be
Who’ll give you something better
Than the love you’ll find with me
Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, it’s never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

:cry: :cry: :cry:

hanggang ngayon confused pa din ako...ngayon na may dadating aalis ba ako dun sa sinumulan kong mali at itatama sa pamamagitan ng pagpasok uli sa isang relationship na nakakatakot kung iisipin kac bka masaktan ulit ako sa kanya...bakit ba nman kac sa lahat ng pedeng problemahin e usaping puso pa.. unfair tlga oh!

ang hirap pala talaga ng pinasok ko ang daming pedeng mangyari kapag  lumabas na ako...ang hirap kacng tyagain ang isang tao na wala man lang kaeffort effort sa katawan...alam ko naman sa sarili ko na hindi ako malambing pero kahit naman konti may lumalabas naman sa kin na kaswitan...sabagay la akong pedeng idemand sa kanya... 

     just finished my feature articles and print ad and i'm happy with the results...i'll just post my print ad the next tym i log in because i'm a bit tired and sleepy...had a talk with my ex and he wanted me back even if he knows im into a relationship...sounds funny...know why? because i myself is in that situation...i'm comfortable with the kind of thing i had with my so-called boyfriend (feelings aside) at the same time my conscience is getting in the way...i gotta fix this thing or else...

it's hurting but i'll be ok...

Hanggang Kailan
Orange and Lemons

Labis na naiinip
Nababagot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana

*****this one's a memorable song for me kac while we (we luk gud 2geder) were walking along the pathway, this one's playing over the radio and someone saw us and commented through text that we luk goog together...actually that was aug. 18, 2005

well i am free of work and assignments but still i feel bored and i don't know how to entertain my self.... i was about to go out and stroll in the mall when suddenly it rained... i didn't go out anymore and just stucked myself here in the house...i just don't feel better yet and i don't like like people hearing me cough like i came from the other mountain...hehehe :lol: :lol:

my previous posts was about this guy i like but then right now i just don't feel that way anymore... i realized that he doesn't like me at all and only treats me like his cousin...sad huh? :( :( :( but its ok because i lost a prospect (nice term you got there!!) but i gained a brother.... :o :o :o :o :o :o yipeeee of course at first i don't like it but eventually i finally end up accepting it....

so who's the next lucky (or not at all ) guy???? :wink: :wink: :wink: :wink: still have no idea...but i'll tell you if he comes along okies????